Gianni and Frequency

I've been hanging out with a new guy, Gianni.

He's such a cutie-pie. You're gonna love him.

He's from Italy and speaks lots of languages. He is really smart and he loves purely.

He has such a beautiful soul that sometimes when we're talking, we hit this point of gazing into each other's eyes that I drift away to another place. I feel when I am with him that I can feel his life-force...it is intoxicating. Addictive, really.

He is a vegan. One of the first dates he invited me on was a group thing where we went out for dinner from this thing he organized on Meetup.com

Note:
Rogue Wave
Fantasies.....
That's what I'm listening too right now...

Gianni invited me to his vegetarian dinner knowing that I was a recovering vegetarian and that I was a bad vegetarian when I was one because I never gave up BACON!

Bacon...sweet buttery bacon....my favorite fruit...my favorite vegetable...just like Homer Simpson, I crave my bacon with butter and syrup.

We speak in code, men and women.

Especially when we want to talk about sex...

Or need to talk about sex...

Gianni is a strict vegan and his reasons for his choice are inspired by a cartoon image.

TIME PRINT
02/03/08
8:35 AM
STARBUCKS
FTL, FL

Notice this moment...

He has put restrictions or controls on his life based on an image that not only is not real but it is a reason that he hasn't even realized from childhood that was imprinted on his brain in a cartoon image.

Maybe that's why I love hanging around watching cartoons all day long playing video games.

I warned Gianni before he get involved with me that I was a 23 year old guy...his worst fear.

His worst fear sounds kinda like this...this is in his head, okay? So I'm using Gianni's words and experiences to move this energy, this bad programing...because I learn everything from television....

Gianni's fear says, "My personal development has been stunted here at age 23. I sit around watching cartoons, smoking weed all day, wasting time, lazy, playing video games and wasting my life away. What the fuck are you doing with your life?"

Ouch!
Harsh!
So brutal
And all this anger from a beautiful man who I love to be with...how can the think this about himself when I sit here witnessing all his glory? His beauty? His being?

How is it possible?

Is it true?

I don't know so I ask again,

"Is that true Gianni?"

No.

I do not believe it.

That's a technique that Bryon Katie uses. She has this awesome technique that uses the questioning process to look at your demons.

Personally, I hate this technique since my mother has an inquisitive mind and always asks so many questions, that I learned not to ask any questions until I understood more...so I practiced not on people, but myself...I too started questioning all my thoughts...because don't feelings start after the thought happens?

And honestly, this is Karen's specialty and she is either gonna have to post about it or we'll be on the air soon....I see us taking our "Free Advice" van on the road. I've already got my mechanic looking for our perfect VW Bus to head back into the desert...but that won't be until May or so...sometimes I'm pretty bad with dates, but it's gonna work. I feel it in my body.

I digress...where was I?

Karen, yes...beautiful Karen Sevenoff. I can't wait until you meet her. She's such a beauty! But be aware: You will fall in love with her...and then what will you do? And sometimes people think she is crazy and you know how other people's words bother you...so just know that now, m'kay?

Okay.

To talk to my girlfriend Karen Sevenoff visit her website:

http://www.karensevenoff.com

Watch out! She's an artist and be aware when you visit her website. Her art and beauty will lull you into her trap. She's a vixen man-eater and she admits to putting teeth in her vagina, but she only tried it once. So, go at your own risk. And she is hilarious. You'll have a blast!

Karen made my beautiful wallet which protects my money and she made my first speaking choker which I am now wearing as I type. Her art is so beautiful and I am rich for just knowing her. I am prosperous because her crafts are on my possession and her love surroundings me protecting me at all times everywhere I go.

And the point is?

Gianni gets turned on by food and I keep trying to talk to him about it and help him accept his perversion, if it really is that. I told him I'm willing to fuck a grapefruit for him if that is what it takes to turn him on. Don't understand yet? You will...if you need help, please review "NAKED MAN TRILOGY"

Why is Gianni a vegan? I don't know really, I haven't asked him...but what he tells the world on his website is that he is a Vegan because of Daffy Duck...or Donald or Cold...I don't remember exactly, but I do know that it was inspired by a duck and it was a cartoon, so it wasn't Cold Duck...yes, it was either Daffy or Donald.

Let's say it was Donald Duck, but I really think it might be Daffy...please accept my acknowledgment that sometimes I forget some of the specific details and I will always tell you when I do not remember exactly.


Cartoons programing children minds? Imprinting their souls? That sounds like an awesome conspiracy theory posting that I hope to write very soon! I love conspiracy theories! Ask anyone about me and they'll tell you that for sure about me!

Gianni, Gianni, Gianni...what am I trying to say here?

It couldn't be something about self-judgment could it? Gianni's programming is about self-judgment that was input during childhood development? Sounds brutal! Horrid!

That would be cruel! To program a child without allowing the baby develop until it reaches full development...why not allow that to happen and then offer choices so the baby can choose wisely....like in Radier's of the Lost Arc...or was that the 2nd one with Sean Connery....no, the 2nd one sucked....yes it was the 3rd one with the cliffs like the Anasazi Indians.

Note:
Here's the link to read more about the Anasazi Indians...fascinating stuff really. [wink wink!]

http://www.blm.gov/co/st/en/fo/ahc/who_were_the_anasazi.html#who

Think about it:
To program a child while the brain is underdeveloped so the image stays, the words change and the baby acts out the image it cannot interpret anymore because it is beyond the 5 years of development.

That moment in time of programming...what was he looking at? Was he eating a banana while watching Daffy Duck? Is that what caused him to choose to be a vegetarian? Who would want to eat a banana while watching Daffy Duck? What's the real message?

I think it's about SEX...just like Howard Stern Says....that's why he's always got on strippers because he knows it is during the childhood development that the obsession with sex happens...right? Imprinted at an early age?

Poor Gianni....

I mean, I am sure there is someone out there who is as into having sex with fruits and vegetables as there are who want to dress up like women and fuck men or put on a dildo and do something else...I mean really. Does it matter who wears what in the porn world?

Aren't we just talking about costumes for the enjoyment of the same act?

Missionary position?

Gianni...my dearest, have I pushed your buttons yet?

Yes?

No?

Dearest God hear my prayer....
Beloved, it is my intention that I move the energy of the imprinting and use Gianni as an example but for his mercy, may I be wrong. May he not wear the face of childhood molestation. May that energy be somewhere else and moved as needed. Don't we live in a community and don't we all contribute to improve the whole? Dearest God, this is what I require: I require the energy to joyfully make mistakes about identifying personal problems and still move the chi without causing any public humilation. May all my words written today be absolutely wrong about Gianni so he never faces his demons in public. Thank you God so much for bringing him into my life, to teach me this lesson...in my body. Because the beautiful gift you have brought to me in the being called Gianni, is one of a messenger. Reminding me to be clear but loving with my message. Hurt no one. No prisioners. NO hostages. No casualties. I promise to stop right before the bleeding...I pay attention to the colors and will read the skies for your messages. Thank you thankyouthankyouthankyou.....Ashey. Namasta.

Communication...it always comes back to that...

Cameron and I have a great relationship about talking about sex, but it came up because he agreed to "mind-fuck" me...and it came at the perfect time too...I was really gonna lose it! Thanks Cam! Cameron was my last partner...he's still resting from our last date. I have a high frequency for Mind-Fucking!

This is what Gianni and I argue about: My Frequency Needs

He always wants me to be eatting, and anything. He's always trying to feed me and I don't want his food, but I keep eating only fruits and vegetables...what he craves. I asked him to take me out to Ruth Chris steak house for a 32 oz porter house steak on Friday night....and you know what I also asked him to do for me? PAY.

yes, I asked a vegan to take me to Ruth Chris Steak HOuse because I need to eat some fucking meat because I've been RAW for like weeks on end and my body craves some meat....sausage. That's what I want...a nice hot spicy sausage.

But Bacon is my demon.

Not Sausage.

Gianni's demon: the banana.

And you know what the vegan did when I made this outrageous request that he sit there across from me? Believe me, I tempted him good too...I put on a nice outfit...he knew he was going to see me so he was dressed nice too...he looked good and I told him so too. And I made my request painting all the details with words so he could see him sitting across from me in a dark wooden booth, so private, me all in black...did I have on a skirt? Oh yeah...always do...so much more freedom in a skirt, so provocotive...and the shoes? Heals. silver shoes. She's so tall...and where were you? Gianni? Sitting across from me...yes, what are you drinking? Beer? No. i don't like beer...I love red wine....mmmmmmm...yummy. Chote du Rhone? Sure. You pick, you have such a great palate...

And he and I go on...shall I continue?

Should I continue to the part where I ask the VEGAN TO WATCH ME EAT A STEAK?

Is it possible he would be that strong?

I painted this picture for my new lover Gianni....and you know what he did?

He said yes.

He said he'd take me out for dinner, feed me a steak as rare as I want and the vegan would sit and watch not eating a bite but enjoying a beautiful glass of red wine....

My brass panty days may have changed their tune....maybe I traded in my brass panties for sexy boy panties....

Mindfucking...

My addiction.

Poor Gianni...

another soldier lost.


See...you gotta be strong to mate with the black widow. IT takes a strong man who can face his demons and look them in the eye before he can sit down at the conference table and come to some sort of mediation/agreement before moving forward.

How many men must I help before I find my mate?

I walk here holding a mirror to reflect the beauty that my lover possess back into my own eyes but only through his reflection because it is how he sees me that I know I am beautiful. IT is through his words that I confirm my beauty exists in the body. Words are powerful. But isn't the feeling powerful too?

Hmmmmm

CHECK

NOTE: Check is a term used in Chess for hang on a minute. I need to think if I am still in a position I want to be in...should I try to win? Should I see what all my options are? Do I even want to continue this game? Should I let him win just so I can move on to do something else? I love chess but I always loose. I am a terrible player.

I am the world's best looser.

Smile!

I accept this role with glee!

Okay Gianni....you're gonna have to tell me face to face how you feel and I know I'll see you tomorrow at Dr. Paul's office and I'll go by Whole Foods afterwards, around noon or one and I'm gonna reflect on what's happened and what you will say to me tomorrow, because I know that I need to learn from you. You teach me beauty You gave me the courage to tell you that I found you attractive and you did nothing when I told you how I felt.

Don't you understand?

That was exactly what I needed.

Your non-response had happened to me before and I needed to just sit in the unknown pondering my being before an answer presented itself to me.

Kudos!

WELL DONE!

Please know that your courage has inspired me...I am the cowardly lion and I look for courage/strength every day since I am really a weak woman trapped in amazon form...but I got on a lot of shiny objects to keep you distracted...I speak the truth.

Gianni, my love:
I love you. Thank you for pushing me. You have no idea what your small move has done to me. Your tiny jesture has given me the courage to move on with my life. See, when I'm afraid, I freeze. I just stand there...or sit there... frozen in time....so much so that I do not realize that a whole 3 1/2 hours has passed...that's how much time we spent together on our first bonding.

Do you remember that night Gianni?

You told me about your experiences in the circle and we shared and made an agreement.

TIME PRINT
02/03/08
8:58 AM
STARBUCKS
FTL, FL

Note to Gianni: review all arrangements you make in document form except those deeds which involve your soul. Never put your soul in writing...remember what happened to Bart Simpson when he sold his soul for $5 to Millhouse? Took him 23 minutes to get it back...with time for commercial breaks it took 30 minutes for the world to see what happened to him.

Gianni...learn from Bart.

Enter all agreements with open eyes!

Okay, I know I need to make ammends my beloved so tell you what...after my treatment tomorrow, I got to Whole Foods and buy you lunch and deliver it to you and feed you on the roof top garden...for as long as you want...anything you want to eat but it can only be fruits and vegetables. Plus...vegetarians taste so much better....

Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

And all is well in the world.

Mission accomplished.

Okay boys, capture that soul. It's tranquilized. Let's box it up in a poem and send it to its rightful owner.

Time to go find Crazy Horse....

Maybe he's in Las Vegas?