Birthdays and Anniversaries

Today is my sister's birthday and it's the anniversary of the day that I bought my favorite car, my Saab Turbo 9000 convertible.  I was living in South Florida at the time and taking long slow drives up and down the coast was my favorite way to pass the time on my days off.

Today when I awoke, the first thing I thought of was that car and how much fun I had listening to the best tunes cranked on my stereo.  Yes, I was one of "those" people!  Music is my fist language and the one that fills my soul the most.  Living in Brooklyn and having a car just don't go hand-in-hand.  The insurance and constant search for parking for 24 hours and the worry that someone will break-in...well, it's just too many headaches for this gal.  But I still think about it.

When I went outside for my walk today, there parked in front of my house was the same year and model of my car.  I had to smile at the Universe for delivering it to me again, on its anniversary.  Thank you Universe.  I love you.  It's too cold to put the top down today and take a long slow drive down the coast, but I know I'll be doing that again some day.

So much love,
All the way from
over here,
Linda

Kitchen Dominatrix Launched

How many blogs can one girl have?

I just started my weight-loss blog as a place where I can put videos, recipes and anything else that comes to my mind as I continue to lose weight and stay on a healthy-lifestyle path.

I've posted some old photos of me, back when Anne graduated from college and when I was at my biggest or heaviest weight where I allowed myself to be photographed. 

Here are some things about my journey....I was lucky.  I was diagnosed with a thyroid disorder in 2005, Hashimoto's Disease, where my thyroid completely shut down...probably melted down due to my over-exposure to radiation (I'm from Three Mile Island and lots of people have this condition in areas of high radiation concentration for some reason.)  The good news was that my disease was diagnosed because I was trying to lose weight but nothing was coming off and I kept being treated for depression which is a side effect of the disorder.

I am not the type of person who is depressed.  I have a sunny disposition....but when doctors and psychiatrists wouldn't listen to me but instead accused me of over indulging but I was eating less than 1000 calories a day and still gaining weight...well...it was super frustrating.

Once I found a doctor who would listen to me and knew from the numbers that I was not responding from traditional thyroid disorder treatment, I started a radical treatment to "jump start" my metabolism.  But this was all done under doctor's supervision so if you are interested in losing weight....seriously, find a good doctor who is able to LISTEN to what you are saying and work together on getting yourself on-track.

So, here we are....a new year.  A new blog.  A new me.

Sending you so much love,
All the way from
Over here,
Linda

Friendship Lost

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My college best friend, Meagan Ann Barnard MacPhee died, December 5th, 2011.

I was a terrible best friend for her.  I could not accept the love that she gave me and I was foolish in my insecurities feeling judged by her...but it was really me, judging myself.

She severed our friendship in 2001 with good reason.  I wrote her begging her to forgive me in 2003 or 2004 but too much was lost by then...too much hurt...too much pain...too much betrayal.

I have begged many of my friends to forgive me for my bad behavior.  I have too many former friends that I hope will forgive me one day.  I guess that must start from within, first.  Forgive myself for what a terrible person I have been to so many people.

Anne, my sister, wrote at the age of 8 what forgivness means.  She wrote:
"Forgiveness means I give up my right to hurt you the way you have hurt me."

Meagan, I am glad you made it to your 50th year on planet earth.  I am glad that you were surrounded by your loving family during your whole life, not just during your dying days.  May your spirit be bright in the night sky and may our true love for each other live on.

So much love,
Linda

Reprogramming

I've been reprogramming my brain and reconnecting my pathways.  Abraham-Hicks works for me.  It does not matter what others think of my reprogramming beliefs and rebuilding my self-worth has been a awesome.  A good Re-booting is important....so that is what is going on with me.  Revise, reboot, renew my soul.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=7UJvOknVTmw&feature=endscreen 




So much love,
All the way
from inside,
Linda

Online Dating....

I've tried it and am ready to admit that it doesn't work for me. 

The last straw was this handsome man who wanted to know if I wanted to get lucky.  By golly, I thought, I could really  use a little luck these days...heck, maybe he wanted to take me to Atlantic City to spin the Roulette wheel!

But no, he just wanted to have an afternoon sexual encounter.  I told him if he could turn me on and I get turned on in my brain, that he could fawk me all night long...but he took that as a "NO".  When actually, I had said "YES".

Yes, I said.  I do want to get lucky and if you are lucky enough to turn me on than that would be awesome!  I mean, you have no idea what one conversation can do to me and if you feel that lucky, then that would be something!

I guess I sound angry or bitter....the problem is that these guys who approach me like I'm looking for a quickie, think that it feels as good to me as it does to them.  See, that's the problem.  I haven't felt "turned on" by anyone in quite a while. 

That is because I have an enormous brain.  The ultimate sex organ.

So I finally deleted my profiles.  I feel freer, somehow.

Now, let's see how free I really feel!  How about I stop trying all together and just enjoy who I am with, wherever I am and stop all this wanting for the future!  That sounds like it will take come courage, and I got that in spades.


So much love,
All the way from
Over here,
Linda

Videos...

Making Christmas Dinner with some awesome friends!

Grilled Marinated Chicken Breasts
Grilled Marinated Tofu
Twice baked cheesy polenta with Italian truffles
My incredible tomato sauce
Broccoli Raab with balsamic red onions, garlic and shallots

Chocolate for dessert

Linda's To Do List

Linda's To Do List:


Meditate

Listen to the guidance from within

Follow the guidance received

Repeat

If there is extra time, consider adding one of these other items:

Exercise
Stretch
Breath deeply
Drink lots of water
Trust all is well
Slow everything down
Relax into divine bliss
Trust the Universe
Let go
Surrender


So much love
All the way
From over here,
Linda

Here's what I know for sure....

Here is some stuff I know about myself, for sure:

• I am a morning person
• I love coffee
• Moisturizing makes me feel better
• I require a lot of water and love drinking it
• Daily movement keeps my soul alive
• Schloop always brings bliss.  So do avocados.
• Each day reequires quiet meditation for optimal happiness
• Acupuncture always works on my nervous system
• I never put a knife (except butter knives) into a dish washer
• I snore
• Music is my first language
• I am unlike most people
• And I am exactly like everybody else

Some days you gotta write down stuff or else you might forget. I almost forgot some of those things...

So much love,
All the way
From over here,
Linda